I'm leaving on the 3rd to Israel, and I am inundated with the conflict.
I read the same news stories from Al Jazeera and JPost at least twice a day. I just finished Carter's book, "Palestine Peace Not Apartheid" (brilliant!). I am confronted with the conflict by the Rabbi's sermon at Shabbat services and by the Israeli temple members whom I've been taught by. I've been to two Birthright Orientations in the last month... enough said. I have just finished watching a movie about a love story between an Israeli and an Arab. AND I've even just finished writing my latest short story off a dream I had about a conversation between a Jew and a Palestinian.
I don't know what's happening to me. My only relation to this area of the world is that I am half/wholly (I know, it's confusing) Jewish.
Everything that I was raised to believe, from 12 years of Hebrew School, and from a Jewish (pro-Israeli) family of intellectuals;
I don't anymore.
My "people" and half of my family are strongly on one side, yet my conscious takes me to another.
I feel sick, conflicted, distressed, sad, and frustrated. I am starting to think that the journey I am about to take to the Middle East next week will mark a very new and dramatic beginning to the year 2009 (...or the year 5769..... or the year 1429....)
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment